We don’t need a special day to bring you to mind.
The days we don’t think of you are very hard to find.
Each morning when we wake we know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartaches as we try to carry on.
Our hearts still ache with sadness and secret tears still flow. 
What it means to lose you no one will ever know. 
Our thoughts are always with you, your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly; in death we love you still.
There will always a precious memory of the days when you were here, 
If tears would make a staircase , and heartaches make a lane,
 We’d walk the path to heaven and bring you home again.
We hold you close within our hearts; and there you will remain. 
To walk with us throughout our lives until we meet again.
Our family chain is broken now, and nothing seems the same,
 But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again ….
Author unknown

To My Family & Friends 

I’m Right Here In your Heart 

When tomorrow starts without me, and I'm not there to see.
 If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me;
 I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did that day, 
While thinking of the many things we didn't get to say,
 I know how much you love me, As much as I love you. 
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;
 But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand. 
That an angel came and called my name and took me by the hand,
and said my place was ready In Heaven far above, 
and that I'd have to leave behind, All those things I dearly love.
 But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, 
For all of life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. 
I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, 
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.
 I thought of all the yesterdays, the good ones and the bad, 
I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had. 
If I could relive yesterday, Just even for a while, 
I'd say good-bye and kiss you, and maybe see you smile. 
But then I fully realized, that that could never be, 
For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me.
 And when I thought of Worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow, 
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
 But when I walked through Heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. 
When God looked down and smiled at me, From his great golden throne, 
He said, "This is eternity, and all I've promised you. 
Today your life on Earth is past, But here it starts anew.
 I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, 
and since each day's the same day, There's no longing for the past.
 But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true, 
Though there were times you did some things, you know you shouldn't do. 
But you have been forgiven, And now at last you're free, 
So won't you take my hand And share My life with Me? 

So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart,
 for every time you think of me, I'm right here in your Heart
Johnny, 
I wanted to first thank you for bringing me to the Lord. We have been learning about Your eternal home and I can’t wait to be where you are. 
Our life now is nothing like the eternity we will have with you. Our life with you was like a second in time compared to what we will have in eternity. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. You will always be my best friend. I will never forget you. 
Man, I miss you Johnny. Tell God I said, ‘Hi’. 

Love your Dad

To My Angel Brother Johnny

I believe in angels
That they're always hovering near
Whispering encouragement
When clouds suddenly appear
 
Protecting us from danger
And showing us the way
Performing little miracles
Within our lives each day 

Yes, I believe in angels
And I'm sure you do too
And I'm convinced that angels
Are always watching over you

I know you will always be watching over me, I love you and miss you everyday!!

Forever Kisses & Hugs, Natashia

“Someone’s Watching Over Me”
 By Hillary Duff

My Brother

Johnny is my brother but we have different dads. That didn’t matter. We loved each other. 
I love him because he sneaks me out of bed on school days when my mom’s not looking to watch TV and play video games. He would throw away my food when I am supposed to eat it. He lets me watch PG 13 movies. 
He has a heart condition. That is when something is wrong with your heart. 
Johnny gave my mom a ring with a heart around it and a diamond in the middle. 
I love my brother. He is very nice.
Most days I barely got to see him. He mostly goes with his dad.
One night my mom went to get Johnny at his dads. She took him to Block Busters. In the morning he was sleeping when my other brother Joseph found him in his bed. He was not breathing. 
I thought I knew what was going to happen. 
I knew my brother went to heaven that day. 

I Love you, brother,
Your sister, Natashia


I Love You Brother

Summer 2004
 Grandma Jane and Johnny

In Memory of my Grandson, Johnny

I have so many memories with Johnny.
The last time I seen Johnny was the summer of 2004. I will forever remember that summer.
We went to Heritage Square in Colorado.
We had so much fun. We took a picture together.
Johnny would always say,
“Grandma Grandma, I love you so much.”
I would always say I love you too Johnny.
Johnny was always told me Grandma, I love you all the time.
The memory I hold closet to my heart is the day I will always remember. Johnny called me called me for my birthday, and said, “I LOVE YOU, GRANDMA. That was the last time I talked to him. 
I miss him dearly. Johnny was my first grandchild. I know he is with me at all times. When I am sad. When I cry. When I’m happy. He is always there in my heart today, tomorrow and forever.

Happy 18th Birthday Johnny.

Love Grandma Jane
Johnny,
I remember playing monkey in the middle with you. I loved playing even though you always won. I remember that day that you shrunk wrapped us girls. You and dad had us wrapped so tight. That was fun. I also wanted to tell you that I enjoyed watching you play pool.

I will love you forever Johnny,
Love your sister,
Cassandra

Johnny, 
My mom bought me a rock that I am saving for you until I come to heaven. My mom said it has all the colors you see there in heaven. I miss you Johnny and I want to see you.
I Love You.
Love your sister,
Kaeli


Love, Kaeli

 Johnny
Many times I was angry that you and your dad spent so much time together and left us out. Now, I wish I could take that all back. I pray that you understood and forgave me for my jealousy. I’m so sorry. I miss you so much. Sometimes I get mad that I do. That little voice in my head says, “Why are you grieving it’s not like he was your son or that you ever knew him that long.” 
I knew you long enough that I loved you like a son and you loved me as your step-mother 
( which is what you called me once in front of one of your friends). I know that you loved my girls and myself just as much as everyone else because you treated us all the same. You know what Johnny a lot has changed since you went to see our lord in heaven. Your dad quit drinking, we got saved, and we even got married (on St. Patrick’s day if you can believe that). Your mom and I have also built a bond that no one can take away from us “you”. Her and I have talked almost every day either by phone or email. She has helped me through the tough times as I believe have done for her.
Johnny I miss you and I love you very much. Thank you for bringing us to the lord and bringing our families together. Tell Jesus and Lulu I said hi. Tell your grandma I can’t wait to meet her. 
Oh ya one more thing, I still only make instant mashed potatoes.
I Love You Johnny
Save a place for all of us.
Love
Your step-mom
Amanda

Johnny,
I will never forget the day you shrunk wrapped us up
 and we had to try to get out ourselves.
 I know I cried but it was time with you. 
I loved that one day I got to play that fighting video game with you. 
You always won, I always lost, but I kept trying.
I Love You Johnny and I miss you. 
Love your sister
Aubrey


Cousin Jordan, 
Destiny & Robert

My Cousin Johnny

The great times I had with my cousin Johnny was when we would jump on the trampoline, play the play-station games, going to Lakeside where I rode the roller coaster with him.  But the time I remember the most of all is when we went to the movies, we watched 5 movies in one day then we went to Denny’s to eat dinner.  I remember when we got back to Aunt Jody’s, my mom was mad at me and Johnny.  She said, “Johnny why are you so late?” “Robert and you missed dinner.”  Johnny said, “Aunt Tina we already ate.  We went to Denny’s to eat dinner.

Those are the times I remember the most with my cousin, Johnny.  I miss you so much I wish you were still here to play games with me and to have many more good times together, like we used to have.

Love you, Johnny “Happy Birthday”

Love your cousin Robert

 

Nephew of Mine 

Have you noticed I’m lost in time?
Aimlessly wandering as though I’m blind 
Where have you gone?
Nephew of Mine

I woke up crying this morning because your not here 
My heart is over flowing with pain and fear
Brave Nephew of Mine

I’m sure heaven is perfect and that’s where you are, 
But the distance between us seems so far
Precious Nephew of Mine

This loss is unbearable it just can’t be true
I never thought I would ever be here with out you
Loving Nephew of Mine

I wanted to follow you but God said, no
He has you now but I can’t let go
Handsome Nephew of Mine

I miss you, I mourn for you with every breath
I Loved you before you were born, I Love you after death
Nephew of Mine

Our Special Johnny – 12/13/04
I Love & Miss you very much
Love Aunt Judie
I remember doing a lot of things with him. When he was a little boy we would go to the park, the Zoo and Lakeside. He liked to eat butter. I would let him hide under the table with the butter so my sister would not see him. 
When Johnny was nine years old we found out he had arrhythmic heart disease. But it did not stop him he played baseball and won black belt in Karate.
When it cam to drawing he was the best! 
In his short life he began to have a passion for Mixed Martial Arts, fighting style. It drove him into becoming a member of Team Torture Fight Club. He was so happy. That is what he wanted to do. 
One thing I will always remember is how he liked to harass his siblings and play jokes on his family. 
As an aunt I watched him grow from a baby, a boy, then a teenager and the start to becoming a man. I wonder where the years went. 
On October 27th 2005 Johnny will be turning 18 years old. But he will no longer be blowing out the candles on his cake, for God called him home December 13th, 2004. 
He is now the gentle autumn rain, the light that shines our day, the stars that fill up the sky. 
It has been 10 months almost two Christmas’s since God took Johnny Home.
Sometimes I sit back and wonder, “Why is my nephew there?” There is so much he did not get to do. There is so much his family did not get to see, like driving a car, getting married and having babies. But I know he is ok. If I learned anything from Johnny it would be this;
We got to tell our loved ones how much they mean to us, because there just a gift from God and you don’t know how long you have with them.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JOHNNY – Love and Miss so much!
Remember your always in my heart today, tomorrow and forever. 

Love Aunt Tina
To Johnny,
Waz up man, It’s been awhile.
How are you holdn’ up – up there?
Hey guess what, Saturday night Chris won his first fight. Everyone was so proud of him. 
Dang Bro we ere so close to the ring.
It was just Crazy!
I miss you Bro, It’s not the same without you here. 
I want to start training with Joe and Chris.
I want to train in Judo, Ti Quando, Maui Thai, Thai Boxing, Kick Boxing and Free Style.
Even just one of them would work.
I don’t want mom to put me through classes. You know how I get on the red carpet. I’ll freeze up, just like I did when we were kids. But if you put me in the octagon I wouldn’t let you down. But you know mom will never let me do it. I’ll start out just like you 18 years old experienced fighter and I will be able to beat anyone I come across. Yea, I know I will lose sometimes but hey I’ll be ready for it. “You win some, you lose some but if you win, you live to fight another day.

We are missin’ you so much. We all wish you were here, but through your Life came understanding and truth. Through your Life we learned to respect Life.

I’m Love-in’ and missin’ you more each day. 
I just want you to come back to stay.

Just keep it real up there Johnny, until I get there.

Brothers till the end Bro ~ Joseph Giron-Sanchez


Johnny and Joseph 
hangin' out


Johnny's first picture as a
 big brother

I have a lot of funny memories of Johnny. We always would tease Joseph and he would get so mad. One time Johnny put a bunch of sugar in his lemon Aid and told Joseph to drink it. Joseph said no way and told me too. I asked Johnny should I drink it and Johnny said if you want. I wanted to show off to Johnny so I drank it. I got so sick. We were at Olive Garden and I couldn’t even eat my food. Me and my dad had to leave. 
I would stay up all night with Johnny playing Video Games and doing tricks on the trampoline. 
I sometime get sad because he is not here. But I’m like Johnny, I don’t let no one see my tears.
I have a lot of memories with Johnny. Did I mention we would pick on Joseph 

I miss you Johnny – I Love you , Darian Aguilar-Martinez

Dedicated to my Nephew Johnny
With All My Love, Aunt Judie

To Those I Love & To Those Who Love Me

When I am gone, Release me, Let me go
I have so many things to see and do
You mustn’t tie yourself to me with tears,
Be Thankful for our beautiful years.
I give to you my love, you can only guess 
How much you gave to me in Happiness
I thank you for the love you have shown
But now it’s time I travel alone
So greave a while for me if you must
The let your greave be comforted by trust
It’s only for a short time we must part
So bless the memories within your heart
I won’t be far away, for life goes on
So if you need me, call and I will come
Thought you can’t see me or touch me, I will be near
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear
All My Love around you, soft and clear
And then when you must come this way alone
I will great you with a smile and say,
“Welcome Home”

You Never Said Goodbye

You never said “I’M leaving;”
You never said Goodbye
You were gone before I knew it 
And only God knew why
A million times I needed you
A million times I cried
If love alone could have saved you 
You never would have died
In life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still 
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one else can fill
It broke my heart to lose you
But you did not go alone 
For a part of me went with you
The day God took you home

Author Unknown

Dedicated to Johnny
Love, Amanda (Step-mom)

He is Gone

You can shed tears that he is gone
Or you can smile because he has lived

You can close your eyes and pray that he’ll come back 
Or you can open your eyes and see all he’s left

Your heart can be empty because you can’t see him 
Or you can be full of love you shared

You can turn you back on tomorrow and live yesterday
Or you can cherish his memory and let it live one

You can cry and close your mind
Be empty and turn your back 
Or you can do what he’d want 

Smile, open your eyes, love and go on

Author Unknown

For My Sweet Son
I Love you! 
Mom 

Another Day Without

The stillness of the morning wakes me
But I cannot see
Why there begins another day 
When my son’s not here with me
The house feels strangely silent
And his room a lonely place
I long to touch his soft brown hair 
And kiss his dear, sweet face
I’ll never get to hear him call 
“Come see what I just made!”
I’m left with only memories
Please God don’t let them fade
Deep in my heart his sprit lives
His laughter I still hear
He’ll forever be my little boy
Though I can’t hold him near. 

Author Unknown

I’m Free

Don’t grieve for me now, for now I’m Free
I’m following the path God has laid, you see
I took his had when I heard his call
I turned my back and left it all

I could not stay another day
To laugh, to love, to work, or play
Tasks left undone must stay the way
I found peace at the close of the day

If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joys
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss
Oh yes, there are things I too will Miss

Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow
My life’s been full, I’ve savored much
Good friends, good times, a loved one’s touch

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
Don’t lengthen it now with undue grief
Lift up your hearts and peace to Thee
God wanted me now,
He Set Me Free

Author Unknown

If I knew…

If I knew it would be the last time, that I’d see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep. 

If I knew it would be the last time, that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for more.

If I knew it would be the last time, I’d hear your voice, I would tape record each little word so that I had a choice. 

If I knew it would be the last time, to ever say I love you, I would say it over and over so you would always know I do. 

If I knew it would be the last time, I would be there to share your day, instead of thinking I’m sure you’ll have so many more so I can let just this one slip away. 
For surely there’s always tomorrow to make up for an oversight, and we always get a second chance to make everything just right. 

There will always be another day to say “I love you,” and certainly there’s another chance to show how much I care but just in case I might be wrong and today is all I get, I ‘d like to say how much I love you and I hope you never forget, tomorrow is not a promise to anyone, young or old alike and today may be the last chance you get to hold your love one tight.

So if you’re waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you’ll surely regret the day, that you didn’t take the extra time for a smile, hug or kiss and you were to busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today and whisper in their ear, tell them how much you love them and that you’ll always hold them dear.

Take time to say I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you or It’s okay 
and if tomorrow never comes, you’ll have no regrets about today.

Author Unknown